Monday, April 28, 2008

So many random thoughts....

Maybe it's this ridiculously hot sun that is frying my brain cells and causing them to mush together. When I am afforded the opportunity I am glued to the news. Watching the nation change from my foxhole, constantly trying to make sense of my world and the world my daughter will grow up in. Everyone has their own window to look from. My window happens to be in the middle of a war.

I feel like an outsider from my own country, like I am on the outside looking in. Maybe, that is exactly what I am doing. I am in Iraq. I have been out of the States for about two years. I am only left to look at our rapidly changing country as if I am a foreigner. What I see: Maybe one of the best opportunities for our country since I have been alive to address race in a America for what it is. Its certainly not black and white, its complex, its how we treat one another, its the stereotypes that media perpetuates, its the great divide, that subject that so many walk on egg shells about. The democratic candidate race is bringing about this opportunity. I hope that we don't screw it up. I have traveled to a myriad of places throughout Europe, the Middle East and yes we are still the Greatest Nation. But the greatest nation has the greatest responsibility; domestically as well as the influence that we evoke throughout the world through our different mediums.

I love my country, but question it, I question it, but I'll fight for its safety. If you value something enough you'll question every aspect of it. Its what I know. We have some of the greatest systems in place while maintaining some of the worst. I understand that there will not be a utopia of the sorts. I do believe we have the greatest resources and a great people to have the most positive impact on the rest of the world. More importantly, I hope that we can move towards a more united America. An America that all of our ancestors dreamed of or at least some of them. Just a few random thoughts.

2 comments:

Tara said...

Very reflective Adrian. Being here, as an insider, while race is something we are still combating there is are two bigger obstacles to face and that is fear and the delusion that many of the people here have that if we do not discuss it, it will disappear. Until we as a nation can come to terms with that, avoiding our racial issues will be a constant.

Unknown said...

Adrian, I often look at my children and wonder - what will life be like for you? Clean air or Global Warming? Recession or Progression? I try to stay hopeful but many times I have to turn off the news and turn to my husband and kids and just love on them because we have no idea what is coming next. Love on yours (as I know you do!) - Auntie C